My 30th Birthday

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       So, today is my 30th birthday. It’s nothing like I thought. I now feel like a Y2K conspirator. I assumed that something dramatic would change as I aged the same way that I had done the year before. Instead, I was blessed to be bombarded with love from the ones that matter most to me starting on the 29th of March. It’s really a sobering feeling to think that life really is a journey or a game or a path that we all will embrace in different ways. I am blessed to have a partner in life that will be my biggest supporter and biggest critic all wrapped up in a little warm body. (As an unrelated side note, the woman beside me on our flight bought my first drink which I am drinking at 9 am). Moving on, I am really thankful for how Cassie has evolved me and our relationship. I am even more excited about how our relationship will continue to evolve. It’s seems the future will include marriage, kids, family, wealth building, and all the other surprises that life may bring.  As I look back on my first 30 years, what have I learned? I have always known, but continue to evolve my understanding of the importance of family. I once looked at the term “family”, and thought only of my nuclear family, now the word encompasses so much more. Family represent the people that you are most vulnerable with, the ones you believe in, the ones you worry the most about, the ones who make you the happiest and the ones who make you the  saddest. As I hit thirty, I realize that family is what really matters most, because when all the cards are down and you are are at your worst, they are there. They are also the ones you party the hardest with when you are up. In my first 30 years, I have learned that it’s ok to not subscribe to gender roles or anything for that matter. I mean rules, laws, stereotypes, religion, education, are at the end of the day, all choices. Understanding that, has freed me in a way that I never knew I could be free. At the end of the day, I am ME, unique in every way and I have to love that. I have to embrace that being unique means that I will follow my own path and make my own commitments and choices. Hell, I am a big crier, and it’s a weird thing to admit as a man. I am ok with loving all my friends and letting them know. I mean, nobody is a mind reader so, if don’t tell people how I feel, then how will they know? It’s a small box that we are all encouraged to live in. This box has walls that define most aspects of your life, what schools are best for me, what jobs are best for me, how I should dress, what I should drive, who I should love, how I should love, why I should love, where I should live, I mean everything. But, fuck that, in my first 30 years I have learned for sure the no two paths are the same. In a very literal way, that is impossible, because of time and choice and circumstance, but mostly because we are all individuals. I have learned in my first 30 years that I am more spiritual than religious or evangelical. I mean I love God, but religion in it self goes against many of the principles that are innate human characteristic, but in that same note, religion is just what some people want and need. I love the quote Cassie told me “question everything you are most certain about.” It’s so contrary everything we are taught, but so freeing to simply ask “why.” It’s not a bad question, but in my first 30 years of life, the quotes by Einstein sums it up best “ if you can’t explain it simply, you simply don’t understand it well enough.” I realize that people who can’t make what they are talking about simple, they probably are still are trying to understand it then self. Where we get caught up is hitting mile markers and feeling burdened to now teach because we are supposed to be able to. At the end of the day, we as humans are simple, complex creatures of habit. So, your truth may not be mine, or maybe it is, but there is a truth for sure.  At the end of the day, I am thankful for all that life has given me, and excited about what’s next. Now, off to ATL!!!!!

Wedding Conversation

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        So, me and Cassie went to a beautiful wedding this weekend, and Had some very interesting conversations. One of the most interesting conversations was one about the dynamic of who I identified with most in the movie black panther. I had not thought about that dynamic prior to this conversation but after thinking through the two characters that were an option T’Challa and Killmonger, The choice was clear for me I definitely identified more with T’challa. I think that his background which didn’t include very much hardship, mixed with his views on diplomacy over violence resonated with me well. Also, the idea of taking over the world using principles that we have known to cause problems, seems like not learning from the past. So, the conversation went on to compare Martin Luther King and Malcolm X and once again I was more drawn to the principles and methodology of Martin Luther King. I believe that an approach of nonviolence is always the best. Unless, it is a fight or flight situation. The reason I believe that a nonviolent approach is always best unless pushed to violence, is because I never want to deal With the burden that white people coming from slave owner backgrounds now deal with. This burden is one of cognitive dissidents which has absolutely no positive attributes to it except for not acknowledging what has happened. I also would like to be remembered for positive contributions to society and not be remembered in infamy. To that end, I also find it interesting that many positively viewed white men also have a very infamous dynamic to their history, but that conversation will be for another day. 

Also, please enjoy this photo from the wedding

Anniversary

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         So, today Cassie and I celebrated our third anniversary. We have seen many highs and lows, good days and bad days but we have weathered the storm, and our love is stronger than ever. We have a tradition of gift giving for most holidays, but for this one, my love commissions a portrait of us. The hope is, that one day we will look back at 40 portraits and say “wow look how far we’ve come.” I look forward to building the mural of portraits that showcase our growth and evolution over the time that we have together. So here’s to us, three year strong, and forever ahead of us.

The Kids

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        Today I got a chance to talk about the kids being the future. I think it’s a conversation that’s not had enough. So many people think that phrases that raised the past are not applicable to the current or future. But, if we don’t learn from our past then we are damned to relive it.

     

Time, Time, Time

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        Today was the day of many small moments that help me realize that timing is everything. It doesn’t really matter if it’s timing for job or living in a certain place, timing always seems to be a key player. It’s funny because good timing happens in two ways. It happens because you’re always there which is something to be proud of, or because you were lucky enough to be there. I ask myself all the time which I think is better. Unfortunately, I have yet to come up with a consistent answer. Mainly because, I love to talk about being there all the time, but my life leans heavily toward being lucky. I also ask myself do I even really care. Regardless, I think that I have benefited from timing to living at this point in American history.

        We are living in a time where there is a massive shift in wealth happening , although it’s not representative of the demographic make up. Regardless, The shift is a very big deal that will have very real impact. The impact will be felt by all those who have survived and or benefited from the way things used to be. The shift has also open the door for many people of color to not except less. I am the first to admit that I am one of those beneficiaries. So, I feel an overwhelming responsibility to make sure that the doors of opportunity are not closing anytime soon. I am confidant Iwill accomplish this goal.

Eventful day

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        So today was an eventful day. One of my executives was let go, one of my peers has been all but black balled, and one of my peers received a job offer. Today was one of those days that you think to yourself, today was a good day.But it also made me think of how many things I may be doing wrong, and have no clue that I’m doing them wrong. I wonder if people are telling me, and I just don’t hear them. I wonder if that has held me back, pushed me forward, or put me right where I would’ve been regardless? In either case it made me think of a quote from a friend who said, and I quote “Life’s not short, death is just unexpected”. So, today was one of those days where I’ll just soak it all in and be thankful for the possibility of another day.

Keep Going

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        Today, I woke up feeling better than many of the days before. I woke up feeling like I could rule the world. But, why don’t I feel so confident every day? Confidence is something that I feel like I have in spades, but I still have bad days. In all honesty, I am thankful that I have the ability to believe in myself most days. But, I definitely have been aided by the support of my family, friends, and my girlfriend. I’m thankful and I look forward to a lifetime of love and support.